THE CHURCH CORRUPTS\n\n\n\nHolding my phone in solitude after a very powerful service, I\u2019m feeling one thing. Love. Not some fuzzy feeling in my stomach for one physically attractive male, a mental peace, sense of belonging. \n\n\n\nREAD ALSO - Emotional Make-up!\n\n\n\n The church is an asylum, not a Pharisee retreat center. Our churches are full of self righteous people who\u2019d kick you down probably before you even fall. I once had a parent Sunday school teacher conference held for me and my friends. Debbie had accidentally dialed Kwaku's number while she was trying to reach me. \n\n\n\n\n\n\n\nThe phone was with one of the teachers and they just instantly concluded \u201coh those girls are never up to no good\u201d. They had my parents take my phone away. Believe it or not, in class 6, I couldn\u2019t even talk to a boy. All I had was Alvin, an equally shy boy I\u2019d sit by in class and help with academic work.\n\n\n\n He was my boyfriend(insert dreamy face) and by his side I conquered the world,sorry, class. That meeting opened my eyes to things I didn\u2019t know. Oh, so my phone wasn\u2019t just for mummy and daddy? I can join the cool kids now? \n\n\n\nTalk about boys with the new friends I\u2019d make with my new pink slide phone? Years on, I\u2019d keep up a charade of hiding and using phones behind my parents back. Basically, that meeting taught me to be crafty. There, if you wondered how I\u2019m so sly. \n\n\n\n Pharisees not Christians. By the time I was thirteen I was lost. Puberty slapped me. I literally slept and woke up with breasts and a full face of acne and after my \u201cwomaning\u201d I suddenly started to feel fuzzy down there when I read those yummy Mills and Boon pages. \n\n\n\nHannah was in the next class. So my day went from reading through classes because I basically already knew what was being taught to waltzing around the forbidden parts of the school with Hannah. We owned the play ground. But I still had no involvement with boys in school. My first actual make out sesh was with a church boy. IN CHURCH. I \u201cfell in love\u201d almost immediately. \n\n\n\nOnly to be dumped a few months later because I was \u201ctoo much of a baby\u201d. Today, he \u201cIvy how are you\u201ds me every time he sees me, all grown up and acting it. Four years later, I lost my virginity to another \u201cchurch boy\u201d. Turns out he\u2019s quite a Casanova (it\u2019s not Nasty C please) and doesn\u2019t even go to church anymore, we pray for him. But yeah, in the midst of all this, I started to see our radical teen meetings as charades. \n\n\n\n\n\n\n\nShout, look spiritual, and be loveable. The older girls were worse. They assumed I was some disrespectful rich kid and just kept their distance. I looked too dadaba for my own good. Fleshy and smooth faced and quiet, the result, I was seen as some too known DB who had life on a silver platter. I\u2019m still seen that way. \n\n\n\nA place of discrimination. The church made me who I was, with my help, and my parents\u2019 (I\u2019d talk about how I hated Church thanks to them later). All my life I\u2019ve been pushed away by church members. Last week someone told me I have a \u201ccertain image\u201d in church. What image? Don\u2019t know, don\u2019t care. \n\n\n\nBut for the mere fact that you have forgotten your purpose on this earth as a church, and spend your time gossiping about the broken hearted instead of praying and encouraging them. Laughing at the fallen instead of helping them up. This girl looks at me with disdain and disrespect. I pray for her everyday that she does not perish for treating sinners like filth, but that God forgives her. The church corrupts.\n\n\n\nBut, seriously, I could go on and on about who did what and who didn\u2019t do what without saying what I really need to say. Which is this. \u201cThe Spirit of the Lord is upon me, and he has anointed me to be hope for the poor, freedom for the brokenhearted, and new eyes for the blind, and to preach to prisoners, \u2018You are set free!\u2019 I have come to share the message of Jubilee, for the time of God\u2019s great acceptance has begun.\u201dLuke\u202c \u202d4:18-19\u202c \u202dTPT\u202c\u202c.\n\n\n\nThis is the purpose of the Church. This is why the Holy Spirit is within us. I do not know all things. I do not know many things. But this I do know, that the church is a hospital and the church is a haven and a place of healing. For Jesus did not come for the perfect, but for sinners, that they may be transformed into the same image as Him.\n\n\n\nChurch, do not despise the sinner, embrace him, and lead him as Christ leads you, that at the end of the day, there will be a place prepared for you in heaven.\n\n\n\nRELATED - [SERMON RECAP] Serving God \u2013 3 Important Things to Note\n\n\n\nThe church corrupts but dear sinner, avail yourself to be used by God and taught by the church. Submit to authority, and grow from glory to glory in the grace and love of Christ. That God may use you to redeem others.\n\n\n\nGrace and Peace be yours always,\n\n\n\nIvy.